ALONE AGAIN

Alone, again
I cry.
I listen to waves
Of clear, silent sound
All around me.
I try to breathe
Some of it in
For any sort of comfort
Unable to grasp
Even the thought
Long enough.

Alone, again
I see you.
From a distance
Every memory flows
Back through my mind
As though it were
Yesterday
As though it were
A Lifetime ago
You're only a ghost
Now.

Alone, again
I think.
About all the things
That haunt me
This wall I've built up
Shuts out
All that Hurts
Also keeping out
All that Loves
Leaving only
Millions of thoughts
For company.

Alone, again
I wonder.
Sometimes
If it would've been better
Had I never met you
What once was,
I can never go back to
The only thing left
As a reminder
This permanent ache
Within me
Which stays
Always
Never leaving
Never going
Unlike you.

Alone, again
I cry
And sometimes
Even my tears
Seem to run dry
Like the desert
Yet they find
Some kind of way
To continue flowing on,
and on
In the waves
Of clear, silent sound.

Alone. Again.