MORNING

I'm depressed today, I'm not sure why
When there's not a single cloud
In the Crayola blue sky
Have to get up
Have to get moving
Instead I stare into the abyss
Of such emptiness
What's wrong with me
No one can say
No one can tell
No one can see
I don't even know
Who I was really
Supposed to be
I look in the mirror
I feel so low
I've lost all ability
To let feelings show
Walking around
Going through the movements
While my mind floats
Away, away, away
My body doesn't though
And so I stay
For yet for another day
I always pray
That happiness will eventually
Fill my heart
Cause somewhere
Somehow
I'll figure out this part.

~Sheena Leigh Sherrange

PLUMB lyrics

Pennyless lyrics

Blind soul lost in Chicago
She fell asleep under a bridge
Drowning out the sound of her sorrow
She's finding it hard to exist

[Chorus:]
She keeps running into herself
Hoping to find sombody else
She keep running into herself
Hoping that she'll get out of wonderland

Fame and fortune didn't become her
So she says pennyless
Needing so much more than tomorrow
As she stares at the scars on her wrist

[Repeat Chorus]

She keeps running into herself
Hoping to find somebody else
She keeps running into herself
Hoping that she'll find somebody better

[Repeat Chorus]

"Gold Dust" by Tori Amos

This is one of my favorite songs on Tori Amos' album, "Scarlet's Walk". Her lyrics speak volumes to me...

Gold Dust

Sights and Sounds pull me back down another year
I WAS HERE I WAS HERE
Whipping past the reflecting pool me + you skipping school
And we make it up as we go along
We make it up as we go along
You said you raced from Langley--pulling me underneath
a Cherry Blossom Canopy
-Do I Have-Of course I have, Beneath my raincoat,
I HAVE YOUR PHOTOGRAPHS.
And the sun on your face
I'm freezing that frame
And somewhere Alfie cries and says "Enjoy his every smile.
You can see in the dark
Through the eyes of Laura Mars"--
How did it go so fast--you'll say as we are looking back and then we'll understand we held gold dust in our hands
Sights and Sounds
Gaslights Glow in the Street (FLICKERING PAST)
Twilight held us in HER palm as we walked along
And we make it up as we go along
We make it up as we go along.
Letting names HANG in the AIR
What color hair (auburn crimson)
Autumn knowingly stared
And the day that she came
I'M FREEZING THAT FRAME
I'm freezing that frame
And somewhere Alfie smiles and says
"Enjoy her every cry."

WHAT LIES HIDDEN

A bright sound surrounds the air.
As it passes through the swaying trees,
Many people turn and stare
At a young girl;
Her joy-filled laughter, her beautiful smile.
A life of perfect happiness
Is all that anyone sees.

Her face illuminated, almost glowing.
It seems nothing could've ever happened
To shatter her dreams.
Take a glimpse, though
For a moment
At what isn't showing.
Look past those radiant, sunlit beams.

An expanding dark cloud fills her heart.
Spreading throughout the depths of her soul,
Begging to be released;
While wanting to be a part of something more
Than just a world;
The theft of all innocence.

Standing alone in a room, screaming
And no one hears.
Desperate to escape this way of life;
Only to be confronted 
Yet again by unshakable doubts;
Deliberately planted over time.
Behind those beautiful eyes;
The holders of unknown elements,To reveal the greatest of our fears.

She reaches out but nothing is there.
What was once had
Is now gone.
Slipped so suddenly through her fingertips;
Falling too far beyond reach.
She could spend forever looking,
But some things 
Were never meant to be found.

She remembers a time
When she was once free.
A child running through a rainbow of flowers,
While getting lost in all the wonders
Of such an immense, blue sky.
The color of it, how it got there, and why.

We often see the smile of someone
Who appears to have nothing to hide.
Perhaps there might be

More than meets the eye.

For it doesn't take much to truly see,

So much that's hidden inside.

 

-Sheena Leigh Sherrange

 
~Sheena Leigh Sherrange

*Forgotten Memory*

I know you hear me,
But you don't reply.

I know you see me,
But you look away.

I know you feel my pain,
But you don't cry out.

I know you shed my tears,
But you show no emotion.

I know you're reminded of me,
But you don't remember

What I meant to you.

ENEMY

I feel as though
I am set to self-destruct
At any time
On any day
Never knowing when
The moment will come
Keeps me living
In a permanent state
Of such a fear
I can't escape
I've tried to run
So many times
For so many years
As long as I can remember
Always to find
Yet another dead end
Whoever designed
Such a maze
Forgot to include the way out
But I'm a *star*
When it comes to pretending
All is Well in Wonderland
At least I have succeeded
In something
The ability to hide
All that I truly am
From anyone
And everyone
I know now
I could run
A trillion miles
With my enemy
The one I flee from
Always following me
No matter where I go
So I can cry those tears
And wish upon a *star*
Numb my mind
All the time
Avoiding all reality
I can do these things
So easily
Almost without thought
Becoming
Second nature
Trading off
One for another
But how do I
Leave myself
My own worst enemy
Long and far behind?